Unlimited Creandivity

okay the 1st week of exams has passed… but unfortunately for me, this 1st week really meant a little of my journey he4 because the 2nd week, i got 6 more exams compare to 3 in this week.. quite unproportional isnt it.. wew.. the result of this week was quite pleasant but because i’m lack of study, there is always a mistake in every exams especially quite easy one but misinterpret the question wew….

hmmm i have read an article bout procrastination ( in Indo – suka menunda-nunda ) well that article really fit on me but it isn’t uncurable so i think i should work harder on managing my time which i never able to do hikz… why its hard to control our time ?? wew…

well that’s all for today ^^ weekend ^^

hmm for this 2 days, in exam fortnight, i’ve been as an exam observer for some classes exam and what i saw was cheating students.. ha4.. with no skillful technique ( really viewable that he’s exactly seeing his friend work, i think he should be more professional in cheating wew.. ) yeah very funny.. when i looked at them, they looked at their own paper, but when i look to other, they looked to their friends’ too he4…. well this 2 days i gave a light action just to looked at them, not told them to go out of the room.. but don’t expect too much on me from the next exam ho4…

well it seemed that cheating is so often done by students ya he4… and the worst, they even don’t understand what to do at all ( modal dengkul + bolpen ).. so they just come in to exam room and wait for answers.. thats a cheater i never excuse… i still tolerate those who only ask for few things.. but to copy all ooo i definitely say no…

for me myself, this tuesday was the opening of exams series he4.. and i think i start it well with numeric method.. yeah quite well lah, not too good also.. still have 8 exams he4…

o yah, forgot to share, last week, i was on a conversation with my friend about our goal in the future.. i said Google, others said NASA and Squaresoft Enix ( Final Fantasy series developer ) wow so many spectacular dreams there.. but unfortunately although i think we should be on a common major which is Computer Science, but we 3 divided into 3 different major, Comp Science for Google, E-commerce for NASA, and Information System for Square.. well this paragraph is not an offence related to major they chosen because they have their own point of view that i won’t doubt… even i think its great that we choose different majors and we can develop a new software house combining all of our different knowledge he4…

but the point is we should force ourself to dream high he4.. do not think that we will fail to reach our goal because every minute we dream about it, we are getting closer to it.. unless we decide to change our goal in the future.. who knows, in our reunion maybe 10 years later we are a Googler, NASA programmer, Square Game Project Leader. he4…

thats all for today…

as i thought before, this week would be a hellish week he4.. and that’s really true… almost every day i spent with doing tasks and tasks, even i got to do few tasks + study for cisco exams for tomorrow.. urrghhh.. well i have no idea why i should complain to this kind of situation so i just take the positive thinking that surely there are so many people there ..

well, today’s theme is bad marks.. i got a bad performance in my cisco exam + java practice.. well, for my cisco, i should admit that sometimes i misunderstand the meaning of the question and it ended not so good.. but i do have a chance to retake the test.. but why do i oftenly retake the test he4… something must be wrong here… i need a better well preparation.

for Java, i do really disapointed to myself… i knew it was really easy stuff, but in fact i didn’t do it well.. and what make me more disappointed is that i am backed up by the assistant ( she gave me free mark by saying ‘ i assume you can do this, this ‘ .. okay no one hates free mark, but i do hate something free that show my weaknesses.. i think, it could be better for her to just give me low marks because it’s all my fault.. Lack of preparation he4..

i’ve learned a lot that although in academic life we have second chance and another second chances, but in the reality, we sometimes only given 1 chance… that’s what i should presume for doing everything from now, that i’ve only got 1 chance and myself only.. i should prepare well, so that i can get my optimum performance without taking the second and being helped in decisive event ( situation where i should finish some tasks alone.. like exams, practices ( praktikum in Indo )

i’m not arrogant by saying that i don’t need help.. but i do prefer help in the right situation.. he4.. well let’s say the reason why i don’t want so much help while i’m still be able to do something is a self-pride.. and i think, ( again, i’m not arrogant ), people who is assumed that he/she is well-intelligent, clever,smart, or somekind like that , a competitiveness is in their spirit ( include me ) and i do believe that we don’t like help from others in somekind situation ( except the teamwork activities ).. what we usually do to some failures is analyze it and find a way to avoid it happens anymore and that what should i do.. ho4… more hard work.. and smart work..

any comments about my thought above ? especially for those i know more cleverer than me a lot, mr F***X and mr Sonic he4.. i don’t know where you both have the same thought to me or not .. ho4.. but ur marks been better a lot than me..^^

yes this weekend was quite pleasing for me, but i don’t think the whole next week will be a pleasure..

in fact, i still have a lot of things to do… and that makes me wanna scream, wanna punch others ^^

i still have some little time, to sit, calm, and decide what i wanna do next week so that i won’t run out of time again..

frustrating, but that’s what we call life.. no calm life.. he4.. always waves with problems

yesterday (Friday ) : was out of home for about a day ^^ in d morning i played dota with friends till afternoon.. won 2 times ^^ great job for all team members, then continued with last practice of my music group ( almost took 5 hours ) and after going home, very tired of course.. but expected a lot for today…

today ( Sat ) :

i can say that today was the peak of my series of underpressure and understressed moments for 1-2 weeks.. and luckily, it worked well..yippie.. got a lot of photos too.. but i will share it in my friendster.. ^^..

OUR SHOW

we played 8 songs, where 6 of them is a new song ( new partiture ) for me and i only have a week to practice ( ooo my god really hard, i needed to take away my school activities for this event ^^ my result for this week wasn’t too good, couldn’t split my concentration so well :p .. this event was a designature ( peringatan – red ^^ ) of International Women Day and held by PRC ( People Republic of China ) Consulate General in Surabaya… beside our performance, there was a fashion show of Chinese traditional clothes…very rare ( i think ) chance to do this performance he4.. i really glad i join this music group although i need to study harder to follow others performance levels..

i’m so satisfied that my performance was a lot better than before, i could finish 90% of my part.. and at least, give contribution to group’s performance in general.. not like before where i even couldn’t stand my ruan ( my instrument, like small guitar ) and i just only able to play half of my part

i hope i can maintain this kind of spirit to finish all of my problem for the following days later on.. got a lot more stuffs to do…

keep living ^^